Saturday, April 21, 2012

My new job...

Well, my new job is going great!!! I haven't written any posts in a while, I have been very busy working!!

I work between 36-45 hours a week but, it is all good. I commute from my bed to my desk and when I am feeling lazy, I just open my laptop in bed. This especially works great for those late night classes when I work until 1AM!

We were given the go ahead to TTC at the beginning of this month. We are waiting too see if we have a little one on the way or if we need try again! I should know by Wednesday or Thursday and I cannot wait. I have been feeling certain symptoms like nausea, heartburn, and increased hunger but, I don't want to get my hopes up. I remember having increased hunger before my period was due before but, don't remember any nausea or heartburn since being preggers the last time.

We are still debating between the border and the Rancho. I am worried about going to the ranchpo because, when the power goes out there, it takes days to come back on and it goes out frequently. My job depends on having power! So, I don't know.

Miguel and I are not agreeing on where our baby will be born when he or she is on the way. He is stuck on me delivering in Atlanta, GA. I say that I will deliver where ever he is. We made a deal, that if we do not have enough money saved to cover delivery and a few extras by the time I am 6 months, I will deliver in GA.

I need to find out how to be able to come back to Mexico as soon as possible after the birth. I do not want Miguel to miss out on our baby's first days or weeks. This will probably be our only child together. Any advice, as usual?

Lisa's Monthly Questions

Well, Lisa has done it again!! She has given me something to write about!!

1. Name three things you have a fear of.
2. Cheese or Fruit Pie            Cheese with chocolate and caramel (Turtle Cheesecake)
long or short hair                   Short, eventhough I have long hair
small town or big city            Small town close to big city
Blue cheese or Ranch            Ranch
White or Wheat Bread          White

3. Have you ever won a contest?
       I won a drawing contest in Kindergarten, it was for a huge toy box full of toys!!! I thought, that was the most awesomething then!! It was pretty cool!!

4. Would you rather camp out or stay in a Hilton?
      The Hilton. I love the outdoors but, prefer the comfort and luxury of air conditioner and running water.

5. Have you ever had surgery?
    I have had too many surgeries! I had dental surgery when, I was little, one of my teeth didn't want to come in so, my dentist had to cut it out of the gum. I had a Csection whenmy son was born. I just had my tubal reversal surgery almost 2 months ago.

6. Are you a planner or go with the flow kind of person?
   I love to plan things but, they usually go the total opposite way. So, then, I go with the flow,

7.If you could have anything to eat right now what would it be?
     4 Krystal cheese burgers (they are tiny square things) with extra pickles and mustard, Waffle House hash browns with onions, cheese, and chili, and Iced Tea

8. What is your favorite type of flower?
    I absolutely love red roses

9. Do you remember your dreams? Do you have any?
I hardly ever rember my dreams, I usually only remember them if they were bad! :(   

10. What do you miss most about your childhood?
      Playing with my cousins and speding time with my grandfather. He was more like a father to me and I miss him so much. He passed away in 1998.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Very sad time

Well, my niece was killed Sunday morning. She was 19 years old and would have turned 20 this Thursday. She had been in a long fight with drugs and prostitution.

She had just got out of jail 3 weeks ago and was living in a house with her boyfriend but, her dad, my brother in law thought he was her pimp. She would never admit it and my sister, who is her step mom and my brother in law hadn't heard from her since she went to jail in January. She lived in Michigan and my sister lives in Montana. My sister had been trying to get her to move to Montana with them so, she could get her life together for herself and her 1 year old baby. She refused and when the baby was 2 months old DfAC's took her. After this Emily, my niece, fell deeper into drugs and this is when we think she started prostituting herself.

On Sunday morning, a fire was set in her house. Her boyfriend got out and nobody else was their but, Emily did not get out. The fire is ruled as suspicious and so, is her death. They had to do a DNA test to confirm identity and are doing an autopsy to find out her cause of death.

Her boyfriend told police that she had angered a john and he threatened to kill her but, said john is no where to be found. Her boyfriend also, said that when he smelled the smoke he felt for her on the bed and she wasn't there so, he just left the house. I find this hard to believe and feel that they killed her.

I was not too close to Emily. She was my step niece and was not around too much. She lived with my sister from the age of 10 until about 14. After that, she went to live with her mom in Michigan. So, we never really seen her.

I am upset for my sister, she loved that baby like her daughter and now, she has to tell her goodbye. My sister is having a hard time with her husband. It really hasn't hit him that his only child is gone and she is worried about what will happen when it hits him. He had a problem with drugs but, has been clean for 3 years and she is scared this will make him slide. Also, he refuses to go to Michigan to the memorial service. He said that he is scared of what he will do to her "friends" when h3e gets there. I told her that who ever took Em's life will pay for what he/ she did but, he doesn't need to let them take his life also. They are not worth goign to prison for, this is why he won't go. I am worried about him, he will regret not going in a few years and that will eat away at him.

My sister is distraught and I don't know what to say to her, I can't go because, I don't have the funds to go all the way to Michigan. I hate it and I wish I could do something but, I do not know what to do. As I said, I wasnt too close to her but, I did know her and I cared for her alot.

I ask of your prayers for her soul, my sister, her husband, and Em's baby girl. Also, please pray that the police find out who did this and this person pays for what they did.

Rest in Peace Emily Moñoz

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Been MIA

Well, I haven't posted anything in a while. Nothing going on here latley except the same old thing. Dealing with my hypocritic, smartass, rude, hateful in laws (the list can go on and on). I know everybody gets tired of reading about me complaining about them. Hell, I get tired of dealing with them!!!

I just started woring almost 2 weeks ago and will get paid n3ext week so, hopefully by the end of April, we will be able to move. I am so tired of dealing with the BS. I am to the point that I am about to knock the shit out of one of theses bitches!!!

Miguel got pissed Sunday, I was working and was only scheduled for 4 hours. We have explained to them that, it has to be quiet around our room while I am giving classes. We never told them, they couldn't talk or anything just, when they were around our room, to talk quietly. How hard is that? well, Sunday, 2 of his sisters kept coming to the entrance of our door and yelling back to the livingroom as if they were doing this on purpose! All of this started right when I started working. Miguel is constantly telling them please don't yell or talk loud near our room, Stephanie is working. They just keep talking louder and louder!! It is like they are oout to make me lose my job!!

Well, Sunday, Miguel got pissed and told his sister that we were leaving here ASAP and he would never come back! I was shocked that yhe said that! He is a Mama's boy!! His sister got mad and said well, Miguel you do what you want but, remember you had a Mom before you had this bitch!!! I was like excuse me but, couldn't say anything, I had to start another class.

We have made the decision to really move this time, we are either moving to the border or moving to the rancho. Both have benefits so, I don't know which one yet but, the decision will be made within 2 weeks.

The Border means, US is close, Easy access to anything because, we will be in the city and anything we can't find in Mexico, the US is just a bridge cross away.

The Rancho means, easier life, calmer, cheaper to live, close to the beach!!

As for work, I work online so, that is no problem and Miguel can get a job either in a factory in Nuevo Laredo or in his uncles cattle ranch n the rancho so, that is not an issue.

So, I don't know. they both ghave disadvantages: Border, it's the border and always has danger around! The Rancho, it is 30 mintues froma city and has no police so, anything can happen and nobody to help. People have been kidnapped from there but, people have been kidnapped from evrywhere in Mexico. The only thing that worries me is, Miguels uncle has a very successful cattle ranch in town so, everybody thinks his whole family has money. Which is not true but, they think it! I am worried about that but, not too much. I will just do the same thing as I do here: kieep my eyes open to anything suspicious and not let the kids out of my sight.

If you were debating on the border or a rancho which would you choose?